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LETTER 10（第1页）

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LETTER10

CHARLESLAMBTOS.T.COLERIDGE

[P.M.October17，1796.]

Mydearestfriend，Igrievefrommyverysoultoobserveyouinyourplansoflifeveeringaboutfromthishopetotheother，andsettlingnowhere.Isitanuntowardfatality（speakinghumanly）thatdoesthisforyou，astubbornirresistibleconcurrenceofevents?orliesthefault，asIfearitdoes，inyourownmind?Youseemtobetakingupsplendidschemesoffortuneonlytolaythemdownagain，andyourfortunesareanignisfatuusthathasbeenconductingyou，inthought，fromLancasterCourt，Strand，tosomewherenearMatlock，thenjumpingacrosstoDr.Somebodyswhosesonstutoryouwerelikelytobe，andwouldtoGodthedancingdemonmayconductyouatlastinpeaceandforttothe"lifeandlaborsofacottager."Youseefromtheaboveawkwardplayfulnessoffancy，thatmyspiritsarenotquitedepressed;IshouldilldeserveGodsblessings，whichsincethelateterribleeventhaveedowninmercyuponus，ifIindulgedregretorquerulousness，—Marycontinuessereneandchearful，—Ihavenotbymealittlelettershewrotetome，for，thoIseeheralmosteverydayyetwedelighttowritetooneanother（forwecanscarceseeeachotherbutinpanywithsomeofthepeopleofthehouse），Ihavenottheletterbymebutwill"efrommemorywhatshewroteinit."Ihavenobadterrifyingdreams.AtmidnightwhenIhappentoawake，thenursesleepingbythesideofme，withthenoiseofthepoormadpeoplearoundme，Ihavenofear.Thespiritofmymotherseemstodescend，andsmileuponme，andbidmelivetoenjoythelifeandreasonwhichtheAlmightyhasgivenme—Ishallseeheragaininheaven;shewillthenunderstandmebetter;myGrandmothertoowillunderstandmebetter，andwillthensaynomore，assheusedtodo，Polly，whatarethosepoorcrazymoytherdbrainsofyoursthinkingofalways?"—PoorMary，myMotherindeedneverunderstoodherright.Shelovedher，asshelovedusall，withaMotherslove;butinopinion，infeeling，andsentiment，anddisposition，boresodistantaresemblancetoherdaughter，thatsheneverunderstoodherright.Nevercouldbelievehowmuchshelovedher—butmethercaresses，herprotestationsoffilialaffection，toofrequentlywithcoldnessandrepulse.—Stillshewasagoodmother，GodforbidIshouldthinkofherbutmostrespectfully，mostaffectionately.YetshewouldalwayslovemybrotheraboveMary，whowasnotworthyofonetenthofthataffection，whichMaryhadarighttoclaiButitismysistersgratifyingrecollection，thateveryactofdutyandofloveshecouldpay，everykindness（andIspeaktrue，whenIsaytothehurtingofherhealth，and，mostprobably，ingreatparttothederangementofhersenses）throalongcourseofinfirmitiesandsickness，shecouldshewher，SHEEVERDID.Iwillsomeday，asIpromised，enlargetoyouuponmySistersexcellencies;twillseemlikeexaggeration;butIwilldoit.Atpresentshortletterssuitmystateofmindbest.Sotakemykindestwishesforyourfortandestablishmentinlife，andforSaraswelfareandfortswithyou.Godloveyou;Godloveusall—

C.LAMB.

[ThisletteristheonlyoneinwhichLambspeaksfreelyofhismother.HedwellsonhermemoryinBlankVerse，1798，butinlateryearshementionedherinhiswritingsonlytwice，intheEliaessays"NewYearsEve"and"MyFirstPlay，"andthenveryindirectly:probablyfromthewishtosparehissisterpain，althoughTalfourdtellsusthatMaryLambspokeofhermotheroften.Comparethepoemonpage110.

InaletterwrittenbyMaryLambtoSarahStoddartonSeptember21，1803，thereisfurtherlightonMrs.Lambswantofsympatheticunderstandingofcertaincharacters.

ThereferencesatthebeginningaretoColeridgesideaofjoiningPerryontheMorningChronicle;ofteachingMrs.Evanschildren;ofestablishingaschoolatDerby，onthesuggestionofDr.Crompton;andfinallyofmovingfromBristoltosettledowninacottageatNetherStowey，andsupporthimselfbyhusbandryandliterature.]

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